I am not describing my own motivation, nor am I telling you what to do. I am only describing what to seems to be the most difficult thing to do. It matches well the expressed view that "if I break the streak I might stop running for good".

Sorry if you feel pressured to do anything.

Apology accepted, and mine was an over reaction too, sorry. Just that opinions are very high in this thread in general.

I drink coffee too, if someone wants to take a stab at that.

The intersection of exercise and identity is indeed a sensitive topic for many, myself included. We are all just humans doing our best.