If you go off your meds you go to a bad place pretty quickly and that's called withdrawals, in most cases which are protracted. You have been massively misinformed and led to believe there's something wrong with "you" as an entity when in fact you just have a great deal of metabolic damage caused by a vast amount of different experiences such as eating super-processed foods, having some mild food intolerance on specific foods that greatly impacts your mood, and overall great mitochondrial dysfunction. It is of increasing evidence that the keto-genic diet and being in ketosis makes quitting those meds much more easier and it is for a fact those meds cause directly what they claim to treat. Good luck.