Let a job just be a job: a transaction from a fixed amount of time and effort for money to cover your expenses.
You don't have to be the best at anything. The sooner you detach from that notion that your life is only valuable if you produce some economic output, the sooner you will reach the mental freedom of not stressing out about every day life. If you go so far to throw your life away just because you can't function in this made up environment, you can simply redefine yourself to see the things the way they truly are.
If you know C++, you can easily pick up java spring boot and working with databases. Whatever you do, do it joyfully and you will ease into things with little effort. Rekindle your curiosity and shake off the chatter of the people.
I think you let yourself get manipulated by the negative news, outlooks and rejections from people. You are not in control of your inner world. Let the outer world be the way it is, but on the inside, you can create whatever state you want to be in. You have to become the architect of your own life or people will architect you the way they want: in fear of things you can't control.
Have you ever noticed how the world just keeps spinning as if nothing happened? Your country spins in a small cycle, the world spins in a larger cycle, the solar system spins in a much bigger cycle, but whatever you do, the universe doesn't give a damn about these abstractions you stress yourself out with. People act as if they run the world. They keep themselves up to date with the latest bit of drama.
With that put into perspective, how much does a rejection really matter? I don't think it changes anything. Even if you got the job, whatever happens there should have no impact on you. The next problem may be a boss, a coworker, a technical issue, a financial issue... the list goes on. When do you want to break free from this?
Make programming an all inclusive process. Pick up knowledge on the fly and you will grow horizontally to be a solution to this problem. Just whatever you do, focus on what matters to you, not what matters to someone who tells you what matters.
You don't have to be the best at anything. The sooner you detach from that notion that your life is only valuable if you produce some economic output, the sooner you will reach the mental freedom of not stressing out about every day life. If you go so far to throw your life away just because you can't function in this made up environment, you can simply redefine yourself to see the things the way they truly are.
If you know C++, you can easily pick up java spring boot and working with databases. Whatever you do, do it joyfully and you will ease into things with little effort. Rekindle your curiosity and shake off the chatter of the people.
I think you let yourself get manipulated by the negative news, outlooks and rejections from people. You are not in control of your inner world. Let the outer world be the way it is, but on the inside, you can create whatever state you want to be in. You have to become the architect of your own life or people will architect you the way they want: in fear of things you can't control.
Have you ever noticed how the world just keeps spinning as if nothing happened? Your country spins in a small cycle, the world spins in a larger cycle, the solar system spins in a much bigger cycle, but whatever you do, the universe doesn't give a damn about these abstractions you stress yourself out with. People act as if they run the world. They keep themselves up to date with the latest bit of drama.
With that put into perspective, how much does a rejection really matter? I don't think it changes anything. Even if you got the job, whatever happens there should have no impact on you. The next problem may be a boss, a coworker, a technical issue, a financial issue... the list goes on. When do you want to break free from this?
Make programming an all inclusive process. Pick up knowledge on the fly and you will grow horizontally to be a solution to this problem. Just whatever you do, focus on what matters to you, not what matters to someone who tells you what matters.