lol welcome to capitalism 101. you are a servant paid to do work no one else wants to do. your feeling is called alienation.

> I love to start with that blank canvas and through sheer will and dexterity forming it into something beautiful.

I have built many beautiful tools for clients, but there is extreme alienation when no one uses it, when you find out it's just a marketing gimmick.

love/passion is for projects you own.