I'm quite a pessimist otherwise, but I don't think my comment really reflects that. I just reported that as a human being, I'm tired of, and fed up with fighting a system that disrespects me, belittles me, overrides my decisions.
For the longest time I felt that I have the upper hand. That I could install a software for my every need, limit this, change that, bend the whole system to my will. But the realization grew on me, that me and the system are wanting two very different things. And whatever I do, I won't win. At most, we can be engaged in a cat-and-mouse game, as long as I'm up for fighting for it. If I'm not, then my cause is lost.
With this realization, I felt betrayed by the entity I otherwise liked very much. And this is the feeling I wanted to convey with my previous comment.
For the longest time I felt that I have the upper hand. That I could install a software for my every need, limit this, change that, bend the whole system to my will. But the realization grew on me, that me and the system are wanting two very different things. And whatever I do, I won't win. At most, we can be engaged in a cat-and-mouse game, as long as I'm up for fighting for it. If I'm not, then my cause is lost.
With this realization, I felt betrayed by the entity I otherwise liked very much. And this is the feeling I wanted to convey with my previous comment.