I'm not sure what I'm going to say will be helpful, but this is my experience: knowing myself, there is absolutely no way I could've done it alone. I went to some sort of camp for couple of days, where there is nothing to do but meditate. At the beginning not only I thought that it's too hard for me to do, but that it's simply impossible. After the first 2 days it went better. It's not magic, but it does have a very positive effect on my life. The way I see it it's like any other sport: it's very hard to get yourself to start, but it's amazing how fast you're getting better