In as much I'm not starving it's amazingly better than being a starving artist. In as much as I wake up everyday feeling like I am in exactly the same place as I was yesterday regardless of objective achievements... I'm still counting down the days until I die (17562 days according to wolfram alpha).

I'll wake up tomorrow and take a step. The upside to knowing there is no destination is that while no step takes you forward, no step takes you back either?