I fear that a particularly difficult experience could leave me with a permanent worsening of some problems.
I recognize that this is an unlikely case, however during my light trip I experienced a seemingly inexplicable sudden anxiety attack which was difficult to control. I feel like LSD is a toss up between potential euphoria/enlightment and dysphoria/mental illness.
Granted, I did experience a substantial tranquility following the attack and in the days after the trip, and I believe that cubensis provided me with a substantial months long relief from existential depression, and helped me realize the depth of the hole into which I was already aware that I'd fallen. So I probably just have a few self imposed walls to break down.
I can understand where you are coming from. I can always feel the anxiety coming back when I've taken them, and can see how that would make folks uncomfortable. I've a friend that won't take them because of this, in fact.
For me, having taken more psychedelics than one would like to admit, it just mellowed out over time. Those walls broke down some and i got more comfortable with that bit of myself. And oh, the depression lifting has been a real effect for me as well. Of course, mine didn't reach anxiety attack level either, and I think that would have scared me off.
I recognize that this is an unlikely case, however during my light trip I experienced a seemingly inexplicable sudden anxiety attack which was difficult to control. I feel like LSD is a toss up between potential euphoria/enlightment and dysphoria/mental illness.
Granted, I did experience a substantial tranquility following the attack and in the days after the trip, and I believe that cubensis provided me with a substantial months long relief from existential depression, and helped me realize the depth of the hole into which I was already aware that I'd fallen. So I probably just have a few self imposed walls to break down.